Life issues is a drain

Mon May 11, 2009, 8:41 AM

I think personal life is getting to me too much. Once a person who didn't understand what drama in one's life meant, now going through mental anguish from it. Personal situations are making me feel like I'm a trapped dog who is being held on a leash and being constantly kicked while desperately trying to get away, only to no avail. It's like there's no escape from it. I wish I can just run from it, but I can't. It's doing nothing but draining my life and mind. It gets lonely after a while. My only escape is the internet and creating art. That's sad. I wish I can run away from everything, to a place where I can breathe, close my eyes, and know that there are no worries I have to deal with. Ever.

Why does life have to be so enduring with crap drama from the wrong people?

END RANT. I'm off to do art, give critiques, and what have you.

Kiriban - 40,000
Whoever catches it gets a drawing from me. One CG fullbody character with a simple background.

Hmm...I decided to try participating in contests. Keeping track of them:

Donchu Art Contest - [link] deadline: June 3
Design Brandmuffin a fursona - [link] deadline: June 7
Izka Pokemon Contest - [link] deadline: June 7
60 USD Contest - [link] deadline: June 19
Draw Loopie - [link] deadline: June 21
Draw Izka-chan - [link] deadline: June 24
Megumai Book Cover and Art Contest - [link] deadline: not given
Moon Legacy Contest - [link] deadline: June 28
Roxo89 Draw Neo Contest - [link] deadline: End of June
Tagl OC Contest - [link] deadline: July 10
$100 Contest Time - [link] deadline: July 27
Hinargaa Couple Contest - [link] deadline: December 1

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Commission me?
Status: OPEN

All artworks will be done digitally. Payment is US Dollars.

Bust (ribs up): $12
extra character(s): add $9 each
simple bg (patterns, designs,...): free
detailed bg (scenery,...): add $2

Waist (crotch up): $17
extra character(s): add $13 each
simple bg (patterns, designs,...): free
detailed bg (scenery,...): add $3

Fullbody: $25
extra character(s): add $20 each
simple bg (patterns, designs,...): free
detailed bg (scenery,...): add $4

Will draw:
humans
anthros (long muzzles, short muzzles with regular lips or human lips, or human-like faces)
landscapes
mecha (I need a challenge)
artistic nudity

Will NOT draw:
porn
fanart
yaoi/yuri
anything that is offensive

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How will the trade be done? I finish the art, put a watermark on it, you send the payment, I get the payment, and remove the watermark.

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=Black-mist-Ninja May 18, 2009, 8:48:30 PM

I somewhat know how you feelm i've been going through a tidal waves of emotions lately all very negative and they've kept swallowing up my being dragging me further down and all I did was go with the flow, not fighting it...
I feel better-ish now things are still bugging me, things that if i could turn back time to fix I would do, things that if i had the money and space I'd go do...but life as I found out isn't all too heartwarming. I'm pretty sure that my depressive whining has scared alot of ppl off that I know, but I'm trying to be myself and not let my negative side take over anymore.

We all wish that there was that one place of pure serenity where we can let ourselves free from the anguish that is modern society...but lack there is not, alot of escape as you said is expressions through art, internet or gaming. I am guilty of all three...but it helps at least and even then it's better than putting that weight on someone else's shoulder who cannot bare that weight. There are some ppl who can handle it like myself and talk to other ppl, but there is also ALOT of ppl who cannot shoulder it...they are scared of it and it makes themselves miserable so what do they do? Run away and lock the door behind them...wow, I've learned so much in the course of less than a year than ever before.

But yeah, if there's ever a need for someone to talk to for anything just gimme a holler and I'll see what i can do to help ^^ making ppl happy is one thing that i am also good at it seems XD
Ttyl!
~Ross

--
I am a shadow,
I enter and I am not noticed,
I leave and am not missed,
How sad it is to be a shadow...
~Ross

~suka May 18, 2009, 10:15:51 PM

Ha, I'm one of those who run away D: But it's hard to keep the negativity from draining you though.

Negative drama gets really, really tiring after a good number of times. At first the few are "nah, it's not much of a hassle". Then when it happens so many times, you just can't bear it anymore and react in a fight-or-flight manner.

GYAH LIFE IS SO FULL OF NEGATIVE DRAMA

...Okay time to stop using the word segative and the like too much

~suka May 18, 2009, 10:16:30 PM

...Segative

*negative

~scotty0390 May 19, 2009, 4:45:19 PM

Suka, if you feel that way...I really wish that I could help somehow. Feel free to talk to me through DevArt / Facebook or give me a call? I'm always here for you, you're family and I want only the best for you.

I will send you a note with my cellphone number in it, you can call if you want. If it goes straight to voicemail then please leave me a message - I live in the dorms and i'm surrounded by Evergreen trees so you can expect that I don't get any service.

Take care of yourself,
-Scott

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~suka May 19, 2009, 4:49:34 PM

I herd that u were in med school >:C lolz my sister told me. I envy youz

=Black-mist-Ninja May 23, 2009, 2:40:00 PM

Lol Drama t3h sucks ><
segative...that's a new one O.o

--
I am a shadow,
I enter and I am not noticed,
I leave and am not missed,
How sad it is to be a shadow...
~Ross